Disagreement occurs when two people share different and contradicting perspectives on a subject. I have been surrounded by controversies ever since my toddler age. Wherever I go controversies follow me. Well that’s as true as you would spell MONDAY. 😉 What happens to you when you feel the society -in which you live- as a bounding on you? You search for wings; wings to fly high, alone, free and randomly. I don’t live a life where I think of those fucking “four” persons who are always ready to judge your shit. I wear what I want. I put accessories I like. I choose, I lose, I drive, and I dive. I speak, I raise voice, I challenge and I oppose if I find something wrong. I don’t keep alter ego to live my life. I live the way I want. There is no alias to me. Sometimes I have a view and sometimes I don’t have a view on anything. Shackles of society, caste, race, religion, sex, and relations don’t bind me. Many of us are good at self-deprecating, and are not so good at the opposite. Ask yourself what is your favourite thing about yourself? This is what I like about me. What about you?
While going through my compendium of words, I found a word: Metanoia – the journey of changing one’s mind, heart, self, or way of life. One of the great Indian minds has said: Change is the only constant thing. What is it that you’ve tried to change in your life?
Recently one of my friends called me up and said that he is trying to make a change in his life. Forgiveness is what he is experimenting. Well, forgiving someone is really hard. In that endeavour he is incrementally adopting the change. He cannot adopt the change in a cold turkey style and go on saying ‘hi’ to people he hasn’t yet forgiven. First he has to forget everything that had happened in the past. He has to ensure that nothing will touch a wrong string and make it difficult for him to approach again. Next, a ‘hi’ does 75 per cent work. Once you forgive you shed the entire ‘unnecessary’ load you are carrying along with you. Whatever happens next is genuine, whole-hearted and true.
After every fall I have changed myself. The change has made me move ahead with dignity. If it was my mistake I kept it close to my heart, reminded myself of it every day, let it grow inside me and finally change myself so that I do something good that’s far more better than the mistake. In my teenage, a naughty comment on a girl’s boobs held me guilty in front of my parents, classmates, and friends. I was asked to catch my ears and say sorry to every girl in my class except a female friend who supported me. Every girl except one in the class believed that I am a pervert. What it taught me was something I adore even today. It changed me. I don’t care about what people think of me. Those who find me good live with me and those who find me bad try not to see my face. 😉 Life’s simple.
To make no mistakes is not in the power of man; but from their errors and mistakes the wise and good learn wisdom for the future –Plutarch
Every mistake has taught me something. Every hard time has given me the ability to make right decision. I don’t carry my mistakes. I carry the lessons I learned from them. At present I am facing a biggest change in my life. It’s about my own perception about me. How do I see myself? How do I live with myself? Do I make myself happy? What is it that I reflect? I am on a journey to re-invent myself. It’s incremental and continuous.